Heirs of the Past

I'm currently in my last week of school, before I go on study leave for my A-level exams (a.k.a "the most important exams of your life so far"). I'm revising most days, seeing friends, going to church, reading books, spending time with my family, scrolling endlessly through tweets, window shopping online and watching sad cat diaries on youtube.

But despite all these things going on in the present I feel like I'm constantly looking forward, past exams and on to The Rest Of My Life. Like I'm living in the future, always looking ahead. In the past, I have never really looked forward to change, but right now, I am strangely really really excited for the future and going to uni and all that fun stuff. I'm looking forward to meeting new people, studying what I love and making friends in a new environment. Where I can be myself, gain some independence, and take life as it comes.

I wrote that last week.

But now I've had my last day of school, my last ever lesson, my last ever bus ride with my sister to school and most likely last ever conversations with some of the people in my year, I am feeling really heavy-hearted. Don't get me wrong, I still feel the same as when I wrote the above paragraphs, but I also want to stay at school because it properly hit me just how much I will miss the people I've met over the past seven years. And now I just want to live in the past, remember the good times and never move on.

I have honestly had the best time ever at school and that is 100% down to my friends; heirs of the past, bootyshakers of the future! xxxxxxxxxx